Some lost pics of the Summer time...

I was going through my pictures and trying to send some of them to my external hard drive. I found these pictures...I totally forgot about them. I have to say I love the first one where I have my hubby in a head lock! Typical me! He loves it..don't let him fool ya!!

Christmas Time again....

Im sorry I have not blogged in soo long. Life is crazy and Im just in it for the ride. I miss blogging....its cheap therapy so to speak. Anywhoo the holidays are hear again. I hope to actually enjoy them this year. Here is a cute shot I got of Samuel and the Christmas tree in my office. He was looking out the window..talking about where santa was. I asked him where Santa was at and he said "Santa is a the Walmart Mom..we need to go!" He is soo funny!!!

Blog Slacker!!

Sorry everyone. I have been a slacker in the worst way. I have a ton of pics and events to post..but I just haven't had the will to do it. Not sure why..but I have been stubborn and not wanted to share. I will get back on it asap. I promise. Thanks

New Tattoo..Sister Tats to be exact!

My sister is leaving in 2 weeks to move to Florida. We have always wanted to get tattoo's that said sisters or a symbol for it. I did some digging and found the Japanese symbols for "Sisters". We agreed on the symbol and I took it to the tattoo artist and had everything ready for 9pm on a Friday night. Well she made me go first and I didn't argue. It hurt like hell and she had to set there and watch me do this. Then it was her turn. She did great..but she is a bleeder. We have the same tats but mine is outlined in green and hers is black. The same but different..Just like us! After it was over me and Stevie..Erica and Noni went out to the Yellow Rose and had a great time. I will post more of those pics soon. I love my tat and I love that my sister has one like it!!!





Erica..Noni..Stevie and Me!!


How you doin? LOL!!


Me and Erica!!






All done....

Trents Graduation

Trent graduated last Tuesday night from Owensboro Community College with a degree in Arts. He is now working on his second degree. We were so proud of him. The first picture is of Trent and his girlfriend Andrea. The next one is of me, Trent and Laz. the rest is of Laz and I. We rarely get dressed up so I had Katie take a few pics of us.

So proud!!

Today our oldest Trent graduates from college. We are so proud of him. I will have pictures posted when I can.

No Randomness today...

Today has been a good day..Tired..but good. Then my sister tells me the date of when she is leaving....moving to Florida. I was doing good until she put a date with it! After she left.. I fell apart. I love her and can't be upset with her. It's a better life for her, Katie and Chuck. I want her to be happy. But I guess the thought I always had in my head just isn't panning out to plan. We had our babies together. They are 4 days apart in age. They love each other soooo much. I thought we would raise them together...and go through everything together. But all that will be different now. Today I watched them play in Samuel's room together and it killed me. That is when the sadness and selfishness sat in. I don't want them to leave....but I won't tell them that. Because if given the right chance..I would be outta here with my family as well. I want them to have more chances...more life...more everything! All I keep telling myself is that its just Florida and not California..And Chuck will take good care of my girls. Ok I have to shut up now...I feel the stinging of more tears...

Randomness Day 3 Wk 2

Today is a good day..My hubby is home and we don't have to do anything..And that is rare!!

Ok...here we go!

1. Sleeping in with my hubby on his day off!

2. Sitting on the couch with my laptop and coffee.

3. My cat gets curled up next to me.

4. Sitting on the back porch..listening to the radio and chilling out!

5. Riding on the Motorcycle with my hubby!! Love It!!!

Randomness Day 2 Wk 2

Today has been a bit stressful. So I am looking at the things that bring me peace.

1. Sitting in a hot bath for an hour..listening to music.

2. Laying my head on my hubby's chest and watching TV in our bed..and he scratches my back.

3. Watching Samuel play with his cars...trains and books.

4. Falling asleep in my big fat chair..I did that this morning.

5. No noise....just the birds singing...or my fan blowing...AHHHH!!!

Randomness Day 1 Wk 2

I didn't blog over the weekend..I was sooo busy..and just living my life..so here are a few of the things I like.

1. Laying in the sun and watching my kiddo play in the water.

2. M & M Blizzard from Dairy Queen..Yummy!!

3. We walked the Green Belt Saturday for the March of Dimes..I didn't realize how much I missed walking.

4. I love my hubby's kisses.

5. Watching the wind blow through the trees.

Randomness Day 6 wk 1

It's Friday !!!

1. I love it when my husband wakes me up through the night..He! He!

2. When I wake up to a warm morning and I can sit on my porch..drink coffee and watch the sun come up in my pj's...It's great!

3. Opening the windows...turning up the radio and cleaning my house is actually one of my favorite things in the world..Crazy I know..But I find peace in it!

4. My skin is sensitive...bummer. The older I get the worse it gets.

5. Looking through the lens of my camera and knowing instantly that I have captured something great....That makes me feel almost high!!!

Randomness Day 5 Wk 1

Here is my randomness for Thursday.

1. I love my flannel sheets.

2. I can't stand posers.

3. I get a kick out of looking for scrapbooking paper..and getting it cheap.

4. Black and White photos are my favorites.

5. I love having lunch with Noni.

Randomness Day 4 wk 1

I'm going to do this rather fast..I'm tired and not in a good mood!

1. I have to have my fan going when I sleep. Its a must!

2. Toosh rub is better than a back rub...to me anyway!

3. I love cheescake...

4. I love to drive the Expo..and soon that is all I will be driving! Yippie!!

5. I have more bottles of lotion than I can count. Lotion is a must when I get out of the shower.

Randomness Day 3 Wk 1

My Randomness for Tuesday.

1. My husbands cologne "Curve" drives me wild!!

2. I love to hear the birds chirp before the sun comes up.

3. I'm wrapped up in my fleece blanket..either my Scooby Doo or my new one with my name on it most of the time when we are on the couch...Janette got me both of them.

4. Silver jewerly is my favorite.

5. I love to sing to Mozart. That started in high school.

Healing....

I have finally reached a place of healing in my life. I have needed healing of all sorts. Emotionally..Mentally..and Physically. The physical healing hit me like a Mack Truck. I didn't expect to nearly die when I had my gall bladder taken out in December. Ohh the mess it caused. I was so swollen..cut up and bruised. It was nasty! These pictures are from Jan 3, 2009. I had my surgery Dec 19, 2008. This is not pretty so be prepared...BLAH!!! My muscles (the fascia) had to be stitched back together and they were soo uneven..And if you notice..so is the incision!

Before:




After: April 20,2009

Noni just took these for me. Its amazing how different my stomach and the incision looks. But I still hate it! I'm very aware of it everyday. But I kinda look at it as Karma. I was a big ol horses ass this year and well what goes around comes back around. And this scar reminds me everyday of what I have done wrong and what I don't want to ever do again. So I guess it serves a purpose. I think that is what you call a "Godsmack".

I'm still sore above my navel...but it gets better the more I do. I have not attempted sit ups yet..But I have been doing a yoga move. It's called the "Thinking position". My friend Erica showed me how to do it. She says it builds your core. I was thinking "whatever!" until I tried it. WOWZERS!! It's harder than it seems. You have to get into the push up position..put your elbows and forearms on the floor under you body. Keep your feet like you would when you are doing push ups..Lower your butt and back down. Your body must stay horizontal..Then you hold it. Harder than it sounds. Ron..Erica's husband was in the Army and he said this is what was done to them for torture....to make them think before they made another stupid mistake. I can understand why now! I'm up to 45 seconds....doesn't sound like alot..but it is! Try it and you will understand!

Randomness Day 2 Week #1

Here is day number 2!!

1. I love Double Chocolate Chip Frapp with a shot of Raspberry and Peppermint from Starbucks!! Only a small though. My heart can't take it! Throws me into a funky beat!

2. Sweet Tea is my drink of choice all year around...Southern girl!!

3. I hate underwear!!

4. When I'm mad or just upset..I turn up the music that fits my madness and I stand at the sink in the kitchen...look out the window and sing as hard and as loud as I can. Great and cheap therapy!!! It has saved many lives!

5. Lord knows I'm hard headed..but its the truth. Pull my hair all day long and I will just laugh...It does not hurt! Ever!

Random..week #1

This is my first "randomness stuff" about me. Trust me it's silly...but true.

1. I can't live without lipgloss...Addictive.

2. Shower curtain being left open drives me nuts.

3. When I say "shut the door"..I mean all the way..Not pulled too. That makes me crazy.

4. When I wake up. My blinds have to be open. I don't like it to be dark in my house. Unless I'm sleeping.

5. I know all the words to Hotel California....even drunk!

Ok..that is the first five.....Leave a message if you would like to....

Blah and Crazy

Yeah! I know!! I have not blogged in almost a month. Sorry peeps. I have had a lot going on the past month. I have been dealing with a lot of private matters that have just about drove me to insanity...and its a short trip!!! I'm trying to get my grip on some stuff and move on toward greater things....But easier said than done. I will start posting again soon...I promise. I have tons of things to talk about and share..just not the energy to do so. But I will leave you guys with a picture Im so proud of that I took Tuesday of my friends children....

My sister is engaged

Tonight my sister calls me and as soon as I answer the phone I can tell she is crying. I said "whats wrong!" I was totally freaked...and that was all in the span of 4 seconds. She was crying and said that Chuck had just asked her to marry him...and she got THE RING!!! The ring she has eyeballed for 2 years. Needless to say Chuck went through all the proper steps. He asked our Dad for Stevie's hand...asked for his parents blessing...then the killer...he asked Katie..(Stevie's daughter..she is 5 years old). When they told us that....well that is when I started to cry. So I dried my happy tears and managed to get some pictures of the beautiful ring. Then he started telling Stevie that he is going to write his own wedding vows and also write a set for Katie as well....And needless to say the tears were a flowing again. Laz started laughing at us. We were all happy and sappy! This man makes my sister sooo happy...and treats my niece as if she is his own child. That in my book is a MAN. I call him my brother from another mother. I trust Chuck...and I don't usually trust men. I am fill with comfort and peace with knowing how much he loves my sister and my niece. She has found a wonderful man and I have never seen her so happy. So now we have to start planning the engagement party for when they get back from vacation.

The only delima I have is...how am I going to be the Maid of Honor and the Photographer? Chuck said to put my camera in my flowers....I'm not sure that will work...but we will figure something out!!!

So Congrats Stevie and Chuck....We love you!!! Oh and here is your ring pics Sis..I
hope you like them.

Hugs from my kiddo!!!

Saturday was a beautiful day...windy but great. Noni and I took the kids to Legion Park to let them run wild. She took these pics of me and my kiddo. I really love them. He was huggin his mommy and that is my most favorite thing in the world.

Wasup...

Life is getting back to normal..what ever that means. My life is starting to calm down finally. I am loving it! But now that I have said it outload...watch out!! Samuel is doing great in school and getting more full of it everyday. He has a lose tooth...and a girlfriend. Ohh lord...Im in some trouble. Laz is doing well...his work is crazy like normal..but he is doing great! I have reach my weight goal..or should I say my size goal. I got into a size 8 pants. That is what I had wanted. I don't remember even being that size in high school. Im so excited to go shopping and wear what I want to wear. I feel so much better. Laz has never complained about my weight or the way I look...and I love that about him..but he does not want me to lose anymore weight. I just need to tone up now. Florida should be fun!! I can't wait to be running on the beach with my son and not feeling FAT!!! I have new pics that one of my best buds took for me as a gift for my hubby on Valentines Day..I will post them soon.

Im in hell

Well I am in the 5th circle of hell!! I have no power..but I do have some heat. I have a woodburner insert in the fireplace. My family room downstairs and the living room upstairs and kitchen are staying warm. The rest of the house is shut off. My bedroom was 52 degrees and we are not staying in there!!! We are taking baths by warming up water on the woodburner. It does work out really well. Our food and milk is outside on the porch. I do ok when I have someone to talk to or music to listen to. If not I get really upset and I can't stand it. Right now Im with Noni and her children. That helps tons. We all are a big family and we all help and support each other. That is a great feeling.

If this last much longer Im going to visit family else where for the sake of my son. He is bored to tears! He is out of his routine and that is not good for a child with Autism. But Im so very proud of him. He is doing well. Mom is the basketcase!!! Dad feels frustrated and out of control. Its killing him to be at work and not with us. He worries too much. If I can get out then Im good. Well its time for me to get out and venture to the Wal-mart and get some things done. If anyone needs me...email and I will get back with you when I can...I love everyone...yes...everyone!!!!

Angels.....

Last night I laid down in bed...put my MP3 player in my ears and started listening to my music. Mind you...I last usually about 15 minutes and I'm out..so I don't hear very many songs. Well last night the next one up was this song. It's by Robbie Williams. To be honest...I liked the guy but didn't really know the softer music that he had..I just heard a few of his songs..thought he was cute and kinda nuts and that was about it. But a friend of mine told me about this song and a few others of his that I might like. And at the time..I did like them. But I had forgotten about this song..until it came on last night while I was trying to sleep. It's really beautiful and maybe one of my favorites now. I just wanted to share this great song!
Lyrics are posted below..

Enjoy!!!


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Angels lyrics
I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know
The places where we go
When we're grey and old
'cos I have been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel the love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

Happy time again..

Well its been a while since I have blogged about being happy. I have not been in the mood to blog all that much. Getting well has worn me out. But here it goes.

1. I'm glad to be alive.

2. I'm blessed to have the best friends in the whole world. Friends that will give you a bath, help you to the bathroom, defend you, clean your house and even support your husband at a really stressful time... Yeah! I have the bestest friends ever!!

3. My son made the A/B honor roll!!! I know its Kindergarten..but still!!!

4. I am actually more chipper these days...Pharmaceuticals are wonderful!!

5. I'm happy to know that some friendships never end..even when they have seen rough times.

6. I finally got to clean most of my house..well upstairs anyway!!! Running the sweeper is a no..no..and now I know why....that about killed me!! I'm a stubborn soul.

7. Im glad to just be happier and healthier and more adjusted these days!

Because you love me

My eyes are open again to those who love me and want the best for me. I again feel the warmth my heart has been needing for so long. I feel whole and complete. I believe in what is unseen again. God has given me another chance to love and to be loved in a real way. I'm so blessed....all over again.

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Because You Love Me"

I don't know how I survived
In this cold and empty world for all this time
I only know that I'm alive
Because you love me

When I recall what I've been through
There's some things
That I wish I didn't do
Now I do the things I do
Because you love me

And now that you're in my life
I'm so glad I'm alive
'Cause you showed me the way
And I know now how good it can be
Because you love me

And now that you're in my life
Oh, I'm so glad I'm alive
'Cause you showed me the way
And I know now how good it can be
Because you love me

I believe in things unseen
I believe in the message of a dream
And I believe in what you are
Because you love me

With all my heart and all my soul
I'm loving you and I never will let go
And every day I'll let it show
Because you love me
Because you love me
Because you love me

Insane about basketball..already!

New Years Eve night U of L and UNLV were playing and I had it on in the kitchen. Samuel was getting aggrivated because he did not have a good enough view of the tv. So he goes into the dinning room and pulls a chair up to the counter and gets all comfy in front of the tv. I showed him what team and what color the team was wearing so he would know who to root for. Of course Dad loves U of L soooo that is who we rooted for. He was so cute just sitting there watching the game..getting excited..yelling and screaming at the TV. As a basketball fan I was so very proud of my boy getting into the game. As a mom it just kills me how fast he is growing and soon I'm very sure he will be playing basketball and I will be the one doing the yelling and screaming.