No Randomness today...

Today has been a good day..Tired..but good. Then my sister tells me the date of when she is leaving....moving to Florida. I was doing good until she put a date with it! After she left.. I fell apart. I love her and can't be upset with her. It's a better life for her, Katie and Chuck. I want her to be happy. But I guess the thought I always had in my head just isn't panning out to plan. We had our babies together. They are 4 days apart in age. They love each other soooo much. I thought we would raise them together...and go through everything together. But all that will be different now. Today I watched them play in Samuel's room together and it killed me. That is when the sadness and selfishness sat in. I don't want them to leave....but I won't tell them that. Because if given the right chance..I would be outta here with my family as well. I want them to have more chances...more life...more everything! All I keep telling myself is that its just Florida and not California..And Chuck will take good care of my girls. Ok I have to shut up now...I feel the stinging of more tears...