Tuesday, August 12, 2008

My heart is so broken

My baby is going to be thrown into the world tomorrow. It hit me so hard that I just started crying like an idiot. I have been holding this back for a few weeks thinking I would do just fine...boy was I wrong. I have just been watching him all morning..thinking that this will never ever be the same. I know its part of him growing up and me having to let go....but I feel like my heart is breaking into a million pieces today. I love him so much and I am so worried about how he will fit into this world. Samuel has a different beat to his drum and not everyone will be able to understand why he is the way he is...and this world is cruel and not very generous about giving people chances. I am scared for him. I don't want the world to change him....but he can change the world if he chooses too. He will be out of my reach but I hope that he knows that I love him and I will always be here when he comes home. I will always be there for him. He is the love of my life...my heart and my soul.

You Can't Lose Me.....

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"You Can't Lose Me"

A little girl, a little small for her age
A little too slow for the field day race
Momma's waiting at the finish line
And wipes the teardrops from her eyes
She says, "You did just fine honey, that's okay
"Sometimes life's just that way
"You're gonna lose the race from time to time
"But you're always gonna find

"You can't lose me
"Bet your life
"I am here and I will always be
"Just a wish away
"Wherever you go
"No matter how far
"My love is where you are
"You won't be lost if you believe
"You can't lose me"

Momma use to say "Girl it won't be long
'"Til it's time to go out on your own
"Chase your dreams find your place in life
"I know you'll do just fine"
When that day finally came
There were things she needed to but could not say
So I whispered softly as I wiped
The tears from Momma's eyes

"You can't lose me
"Bet your life
"I am here and I will always be
"Just a wish away
"Wherever I go
"No matter how far
"My love is where you are
"You won't be lost if you believe
"You can't lose me"

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