Healing....

I have finally reached a place of healing in my life. I have needed healing of all sorts. Emotionally..Mentally..and Physically. The physical healing hit me like a Mack Truck. I didn't expect to nearly die when I had my gall bladder taken out in December. Ohh the mess it caused. I was so swollen..cut up and bruised. It was nasty! These pictures are from Jan 3, 2009. I had my surgery Dec 19, 2008. This is not pretty so be prepared...BLAH!!! My muscles (the fascia) had to be stitched back together and they were soo uneven..And if you notice..so is the incision!

Before:




After: April 20,2009

Noni just took these for me. Its amazing how different my stomach and the incision looks. But I still hate it! I'm very aware of it everyday. But I kinda look at it as Karma. I was a big ol horses ass this year and well what goes around comes back around. And this scar reminds me everyday of what I have done wrong and what I don't want to ever do again. So I guess it serves a purpose. I think that is what you call a "Godsmack".

I'm still sore above my navel...but it gets better the more I do. I have not attempted sit ups yet..But I have been doing a yoga move. It's called the "Thinking position". My friend Erica showed me how to do it. She says it builds your core. I was thinking "whatever!" until I tried it. WOWZERS!! It's harder than it seems. You have to get into the push up position..put your elbows and forearms on the floor under you body. Keep your feet like you would when you are doing push ups..Lower your butt and back down. Your body must stay horizontal..Then you hold it. Harder than it sounds. Ron..Erica's husband was in the Army and he said this is what was done to them for torture....to make them think before they made another stupid mistake. I can understand why now! I'm up to 45 seconds....doesn't sound like alot..but it is! Try it and you will understand!

Randomness Day 2 Week #1

Here is day number 2!!

1. I love Double Chocolate Chip Frapp with a shot of Raspberry and Peppermint from Starbucks!! Only a small though. My heart can't take it! Throws me into a funky beat!

2. Sweet Tea is my drink of choice all year around...Southern girl!!

3. I hate underwear!!

4. When I'm mad or just upset..I turn up the music that fits my madness and I stand at the sink in the kitchen...look out the window and sing as hard and as loud as I can. Great and cheap therapy!!! It has saved many lives!

5. Lord knows I'm hard headed..but its the truth. Pull my hair all day long and I will just laugh...It does not hurt! Ever!

Random..week #1

This is my first "randomness stuff" about me. Trust me it's silly...but true.

1. I can't live without lipgloss...Addictive.

2. Shower curtain being left open drives me nuts.

3. When I say "shut the door"..I mean all the way..Not pulled too. That makes me crazy.

4. When I wake up. My blinds have to be open. I don't like it to be dark in my house. Unless I'm sleeping.

5. I know all the words to Hotel California....even drunk!

Ok..that is the first five.....Leave a message if you would like to....

Blah and Crazy

Yeah! I know!! I have not blogged in almost a month. Sorry peeps. I have had a lot going on the past month. I have been dealing with a lot of private matters that have just about drove me to insanity...and its a short trip!!! I'm trying to get my grip on some stuff and move on toward greater things....But easier said than done. I will start posting again soon...I promise. I have tons of things to talk about and share..just not the energy to do so. But I will leave you guys with a picture Im so proud of that I took Tuesday of my friends children....

My sister is engaged

Tonight my sister calls me and as soon as I answer the phone I can tell she is crying. I said "whats wrong!" I was totally freaked...and that was all in the span of 4 seconds. She was crying and said that Chuck had just asked her to marry him...and she got THE RING!!! The ring she has eyeballed for 2 years. Needless to say Chuck went through all the proper steps. He asked our Dad for Stevie's hand...asked for his parents blessing...then the killer...he asked Katie..(Stevie's daughter..she is 5 years old). When they told us that....well that is when I started to cry. So I dried my happy tears and managed to get some pictures of the beautiful ring. Then he started telling Stevie that he is going to write his own wedding vows and also write a set for Katie as well....And needless to say the tears were a flowing again. Laz started laughing at us. We were all happy and sappy! This man makes my sister sooo happy...and treats my niece as if she is his own child. That in my book is a MAN. I call him my brother from another mother. I trust Chuck...and I don't usually trust men. I am fill with comfort and peace with knowing how much he loves my sister and my niece. She has found a wonderful man and I have never seen her so happy. So now we have to start planning the engagement party for when they get back from vacation.

The only delima I have is...how am I going to be the Maid of Honor and the Photographer? Chuck said to put my camera in my flowers....I'm not sure that will work...but we will figure something out!!!

So Congrats Stevie and Chuck....We love you!!! Oh and here is your ring pics Sis..I
hope you like them.

Hugs from my kiddo!!!

Saturday was a beautiful day...windy but great. Noni and I took the kids to Legion Park to let them run wild. She took these pics of me and my kiddo. I really love them. He was huggin his mommy and that is my most favorite thing in the world.

Wasup...

Life is getting back to normal..what ever that means. My life is starting to calm down finally. I am loving it! But now that I have said it outload...watch out!! Samuel is doing great in school and getting more full of it everyday. He has a lose tooth...and a girlfriend. Ohh lord...Im in some trouble. Laz is doing well...his work is crazy like normal..but he is doing great! I have reach my weight goal..or should I say my size goal. I got into a size 8 pants. That is what I had wanted. I don't remember even being that size in high school. Im so excited to go shopping and wear what I want to wear. I feel so much better. Laz has never complained about my weight or the way I look...and I love that about him..but he does not want me to lose anymore weight. I just need to tone up now. Florida should be fun!! I can't wait to be running on the beach with my son and not feeling FAT!!! I have new pics that one of my best buds took for me as a gift for my hubby on Valentines Day..I will post them soon.