To a Stranger

To a Stranger by Walt Whitman

Passing stranger! you do not know
How longingly I look upon you,
You must be he I was seeking,
Or she I was seeking
(It comes to me as a dream)

I have somewhere surely
Lived a life of joy with you,
All is recall'd as we flit by each other,
Fluid, affectionate, chaste, matured,

You grew up with me,
Were a boy with me or a girl with me,
I ate with you and slept with you, your body has become
not yours only nor left my body mine only,

You give me the pleasure of your eyes,
face, flesh as we pass,
You take of my beard, breast, hands,
in return,

I am not to speak to you, I am to think of you
when I sit alone or wake at night, alone
I am to wait, I do not doubt I am to meet you again
I am to see to it that I do not lose you.

Poetry to me.......Adele

I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
When we fell, something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time, oh
Oh, no Let it burn,

One and Only

I just bought the new Adele CD. Its absolutely wonderful. She has such a soulful voice. I'm past addicted. This song has to be one of my favorites. Its about someone who loves someone that does not want to give their heart away because of a past or being scared! Its very moving! Give it a listen. I guarantee you will become a fan. The YouTube video isn't the best...but good enough!!






One and Only Lyrics

You've been on my mind
I grow fonder every day loose myself in time
Just thinking of your face God only knows
Why it's taking me so long to let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never tried to forgive your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove I am the one who can
Walk that mile
until the end starts
Have I been on your mind

You hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time
At the mention of my name, will I ever know
How it feels to hold you close
And have you tell me which ever road I chose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared, Coz I've been here before
Every feeling every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never try to forgive your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove I am the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart
I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

Nobody's perfect, it ain't easy, trust me (Ive lerned it), I've given up your heart
Nobody's perfect, it ain't easy, trust me I've given up your heart

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart
Nobody's perfect, it ain't easy, trust me I've given up your heart

So I dare you to let me be all, the one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove I am the one who can
Walk tat mile until the end starts
Come and give me the chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that miles until the end starts.

My own soundtrack!

I'm sure everyone hears a song or lots of songs that go right along with moments from your life. Or you hear a song..and you wish you had a moment to go along with that song! I know that sounds crazy...but looks who is blogging! Me!! I have so much music bouncing around in my head. Maybe I should blog the music and if appropriate blog the memory. I won't give dates or names...but just let it out! Hmm...if your a sensitive soul....just be prepared!! LOL!! I'm kinda open when I write..I may offend or I crack you up or bring tears...who knows!! I will attempt to do this often. Not every song has a great YouTube vid to go with it, but I will post the closest thing I can and the lyrics! BEWARE!! I can be a sap and a big b*tch!

This song reminds me of a look in someones eye. The look of go ahead..you can't hurt me. Leave! It was cold...no pulse..no warmth. Nothing. Of course it killed me to my core. I was shattered beyond words. But little did he know...I would haunt him a lot longer than it ever would me. I never wished that for this person..but its funny how life works.

HOW STRONG ARE YOU NOW...

When she told you goodbye
You didn't flinch
When she looked back
You didn't even budge an inch
You stood there like stone
But now that she's gone

[CHORUS]

How strong are you now
Without her around
You can't even keep one little bitty tear
From fallin' down
Tell me how strong are you know

Before she left you told yourself
It can't hurt that much
Now you're doubled over
Like you took a punch
No, she ain't coming back
Tell me how much can you take of that

[REPEAT CHORUS]

Tell me how strong are you now - yeah
How strong are you now - oh, oh
What's that rule you live by
You say tough guys never cry
But how strong are you now



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Song of the day...

I love her voice....so I play a lot of her music. My son listens to everything I listen too.....within reason. Today he has been stuck on this song. I mean the boy is using the Wii controller and is singing his heart out in the kitchen. If I don't sing with him...he wants to give me a "butt whippin". Lol!

Happy New Year

I'm not going list a bunch of stuff I plan to accomplish this year. I don't like to make plans period. I just hope this year is great and that everyone that I love is healthy and happy. I also wish the same for me! Be safe and have a blast tonight. See ya next year!

Pink - It's All Your Fault - Live in Australia DVD - Funhouse Tour

I love this whole freakin album!!




I'd conjure up the thought of being gone
But I'd probably even do that wrong
I try to think about which way
Would I be able to and would I be afraid

Cause oh I'm bleeding out inside
Oh I don't even mind (yeah)

It's all your fault
You called me beautiful
You turned me out
And now I can't turn back
I hold my breath
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air
And it's not fair

Da da dada da dada da
Da dadadadadada da dadadadadada

I'm trying to figure out what else to say (what else could I say?)
To make you turn around and come back this way
(Would you just come back this way)
I feel like we could be really awesome together
So make up your mind cause it's now or never (oh)

It's all your fault
You called me beautiful
You turned me out
And now I can't turn back
I hold my breath
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air
And it's not fair

I would never pull the trigger
But I've cried wolf a thousand times
I wish you could
Feel as bad as I do
I have lost my mind

It's all your fault
You called me beautiful
You turned me out
And now I can't turn back
I hold (I hold) my breath (my breath)
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air (running out of air)
And it's not fair

(Oh yeah
It's all your fault)

I hold my breath
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air
And it's not (it's not) fair

Pink - The One That Got Away Live - I'm Not Dead Tour DVD

One of my favorite Pink songs. I sing this aleast once a day..LOL!

The Notebook / Lifehouse - Everything

This is my favorite song. I have lots of songs that I love..but this has to be "the one". For some reason it draws all kinds of warmth from deep inside of me to the surface.

It reminds me of a cool summer almost fall night. Slight breeze blowing against my skin. The full moon above with a few clouds covering it like a warm blanket. The sound of the tree tops dancing in the wind. The taste of a long awaited kiss. Warm skin touching ever so gently. The long look into each others eyes that can say a million things without one word being spoken. The depth of a strong embrace ..wishing it could last forever...The beautiful feeling of two hearts pounding for each other says "EVERYTHING"

When I need to find my peace...my happy place...to get away from the world. This is the image in my mind..I will listen to this song over and over until my dark clouds pass by.

Run

This is simply beautiful........

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I'll sing it one last time for you

Then we really have to go

You've been the only thing that's right

In all I've done



And I can barely look at you

But every single time I do

I know we'll make it anywhere

Away from here



Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you dear


Louder louder

And we'll Run for our lives

I can hardly speak I understand

Why you can't raise your voice to say



To think I might not see those eyes

Makes it so hard not to cry

And as we say our long goodbye

I nearly do


Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you dear



Louder louder

And we'll run for our lives

I can hardly speak I understand

Why you can't raise your voice to say


Slower slower

We don't have time for that

All I want is to find an easier way

To get out of our little heads



Have heart my dear

We're bound to be afraid

Even if it's just for a few days

Making up for all this mess


Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you dear

Just like a pill

One of my favorite Pink songs...........I have had this type of relationship before...thanking God everyday that I don't now!


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Pic by Erica

I went to Erica's today. Its been forever since we have gotten together to work on picture edits. Ron got her some studio lights and back drop for Christmas..so we were working it over today. She took pics of Jenna bug and of me and of us together. We had a great day. But it went by way to fast.

Some lost pics of the Summer time...

I was going through my pictures and trying to send some of them to my external hard drive. I found these pictures...I totally forgot about them. I have to say I love the first one where I have my hubby in a head lock! Typical me! He loves it..don't let him fool ya!!

Christmas Time again....

Im sorry I have not blogged in soo long. Life is crazy and Im just in it for the ride. I miss blogging....its cheap therapy so to speak. Anywhoo the holidays are hear again. I hope to actually enjoy them this year. Here is a cute shot I got of Samuel and the Christmas tree in my office. He was looking out the window..talking about where santa was. I asked him where Santa was at and he said "Santa is a the Walmart Mom..we need to go!" He is soo funny!!!

Blog Slacker!!

Sorry everyone. I have been a slacker in the worst way. I have a ton of pics and events to post..but I just haven't had the will to do it. Not sure why..but I have been stubborn and not wanted to share. I will get back on it asap. I promise. Thanks

New Tattoo..Sister Tats to be exact!

My sister is leaving in 2 weeks to move to Florida. We have always wanted to get tattoo's that said sisters or a symbol for it. I did some digging and found the Japanese symbols for "Sisters". We agreed on the symbol and I took it to the tattoo artist and had everything ready for 9pm on a Friday night. Well she made me go first and I didn't argue. It hurt like hell and she had to set there and watch me do this. Then it was her turn. She did great..but she is a bleeder. We have the same tats but mine is outlined in green and hers is black. The same but different..Just like us! After it was over me and Stevie..Erica and Noni went out to the Yellow Rose and had a great time. I will post more of those pics soon. I love my tat and I love that my sister has one like it!!!





Erica..Noni..Stevie and Me!!


How you doin? LOL!!


Me and Erica!!






All done....

Trents Graduation

Trent graduated last Tuesday night from Owensboro Community College with a degree in Arts. He is now working on his second degree. We were so proud of him. The first picture is of Trent and his girlfriend Andrea. The next one is of me, Trent and Laz. the rest is of Laz and I. We rarely get dressed up so I had Katie take a few pics of us.

So proud!!

Today our oldest Trent graduates from college. We are so proud of him. I will have pictures posted when I can.

No Randomness today...

Today has been a good day..Tired..but good. Then my sister tells me the date of when she is leaving....moving to Florida. I was doing good until she put a date with it! After she left.. I fell apart. I love her and can't be upset with her. It's a better life for her, Katie and Chuck. I want her to be happy. But I guess the thought I always had in my head just isn't panning out to plan. We had our babies together. They are 4 days apart in age. They love each other soooo much. I thought we would raise them together...and go through everything together. But all that will be different now. Today I watched them play in Samuel's room together and it killed me. That is when the sadness and selfishness sat in. I don't want them to leave....but I won't tell them that. Because if given the right chance..I would be outta here with my family as well. I want them to have more chances...more life...more everything! All I keep telling myself is that its just Florida and not California..And Chuck will take good care of my girls. Ok I have to shut up now...I feel the stinging of more tears...

Randomness Day 3 Wk 2

Today is a good day..My hubby is home and we don't have to do anything..And that is rare!!

Ok...here we go!

1. Sleeping in with my hubby on his day off!

2. Sitting on the couch with my laptop and coffee.

3. My cat gets curled up next to me.

4. Sitting on the back porch..listening to the radio and chilling out!

5. Riding on the Motorcycle with my hubby!! Love It!!!